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Tuesday, February 21st, 2006
8:57 pm
i was accepted into loveisthebest! click here!
Thursday, May 12th, 2005
9:12 am
I think I'm falling in love with Charles Manson.
Saturday, April 30th, 2005
10:21 pm
Love, by any other name....
Tua in mei cordi aterni portabo.

Even Though it hurts, it tears your insides, you still smile. A golden, beautiful smile that the entire world gathers round to see. There is something even more beautiful about the one you love when shes in love, even when its not with you. Thats the hardest part about having such strong feelings for someone who doesn't feel the same way about you, especially if you are being a good friend.

I mean, you want to see that person Happy. In Fact, just seeing them happy is the only thing that really makes you happy. Even if you are sad, their smiling face and their own happiness is enough to buoy your own emotions. Then they fall for someone else, having tried yourself and failed, and they are in Love.
An inner lamp is lit, and they glow from outside in. Its even brighter when they talk about the one they love. It sometimes hurts that you cant be the one that lights it, but you enjoy its light nonetheless...and you reside yoruself to pine forever about the loss you never actually had the chance to have....

That is what it is to Love someone who doesn't love you back. Pain of body and mind, of all sorts, just doesn't compare.

Who doesn't know that feeling, but who wants it.

Current Mood: artistic
Friday, November 26th, 2004
1:55 am
And here it is, that time of year. Time for everyone to celebrate having people who love them, and time for me to smile and act like I do, too.

I remember the holidays, back when he and I were still together. Back when he said he loved me. He bought me a necklace while he was in Vegas with his family, had his mother flip out when she found out what he'd done. Back then, I meant something. Back then, he was willing to stand up to his mother for me. And now, here I am, thrown away, missing him like crazy, and still not knowing why he left.

My holidays have been empty since he left me.
Monday, October 4th, 2004
10:46 pm
Wednesday, September 29th, 2004
5:38 am
I still think of my girlfriend from High School oh so long ago. Where the hell is she, why doesnt she call, will I ever see her again. It seams the worse the relationship was the more I miss them..

I will always love you Violet and Marie
5:35 am
I love needy possesive b*tches.. I just wanted to clear that up. I fall in love in about 2 minutes and generally dont get over it for a long time.. sigh.
Monday, September 20th, 2004
5:50 pm
dude i seriously need to get over this kid and stop obsessing over him but i dont know how...any suggestions?
Wednesday, August 25th, 2004
11:59 pm
i'm one of those stupid girls that sits pathetically around waiting for the phone to ring. i wish i didn't love him so much sometimes.
then i'm crushed when the phone doesn't ring.

Current Mood: cranky
2:39 am
hello, i'm new. i'm 16,17 in december.
i have such a problem with being obsessed. it's like i don't want to actually admit to myself that i'm this way. i bite my tongue on many things when it comes to, whom i believe is the love of my life. i do, sometimes feel he walks all over me..and i let him..i just can't stop.heh..do any of you have this problem? you don't want to admit it to yourself?
it hurts.

Current Mood: crushed
Wednesday, August 4th, 2004
1:49 pm

Do you know
How it feels
Lying here without you baby
You could never understand what's happening to me
So alone
Nothing's real
I just dream about you baby
And forever wonder why you had
To break free

Even though you're not my lover
Even though you're not my friend
I would give my all
To have you here
Just to hold you once again

It's so hard
To believe
I don't have you right beside me
As I long to touch you
But you're out of my reach
And my heart doesn't feel
It's so very cold inside of me
Just a shadow of someone that I used to be

Even though you're not my lover
Even though you're not my friend
I would give my all
To have you here
Just to hold you once again

You were the only one                                                  That I allowed inside my heart
Now I'm just holding on
To something so far gone
Where did I go wrong

Current Mood: nostalgic
Tuesday, August 3rd, 2004
3:18 pm

last night i dreampt of him...i woke up with a sick empty feeling...i wanted so badly to fall back into my dream and never wake up...it just felt so right being in his arms...but it felt  wrong waking up and holding onto a dream that i cant seem to make come true

i dont mean to sound pathetic...but i just needed to get that out and written somewhere and here seemed to be the perfect place...

Monday, August 2nd, 2004
1:58 pm
Sorry for the blatant promo...
But I was wondering if any of you fine people here would be interested in a new community, clingon.

In the words of its illustrious owner, it's a livejournal community "for people who, in relationships or otherwise, outright love clinginess ~ whether the cling is given, received, or mutually shared. People also welcome to this community are those who are obsessive in relationships." :)

Furthermore, feel free to share lovey-dovey experiences you've had, your longings while your other half is in a far off land (like at work ^_^) or anything related to clinginess.

Current Mood: curious
Thursday, July 29th, 2004
7:39 pm

hey people im new to this commnunity...im ashley

and yes i am a very obsessive person...especially when it comes to guys...if i fall for a guy i fall hard and i become totally obsessed with him...it brings me a lot of heartache.

Tuesday, July 6th, 2004
12:58 pm
hey. im 16, almost 17, and i live in toronto canada

where to start? i have this bad habit of getting attached too fast and too much as im sure the rest of you do. and i let boys walk all over me.

so just recently,
i was with this boy. we'd dated before but i wasnt as into him as he was to me.
so we started dating.
we have this connection that ive never felt before.
it was like it was meant to be.
we talked about our future.
he planned for me to stay with him in the summer so we could spend every waking moment together.
i thought i had found the perfect ending
and then one friday i went to his house cause even though he was so busy with school
we still saw each other EVERY FRIDAY

he started off with teh "never wanna lose you" "lets just be friends" bullshit.

i couldnt believe it.
after planning our future he just wakes up and "realizes his feelings are just platonic"


i thought that was it for me. we were destined to be together and he left me. not only that but he makes for a terrible friend. well not really, he just hasnt called much. or called back.
i felt it was the end....

but there is a happy ending.

i have this friend that i barely know at all. we've been introduced through friends and i'm not sure if we ever even met in person
but we always have such in-depth msn conversations.
so tuesday night i met him at a party.
and wednesday night we started going out.
he is the most amazing person in the world. hes shy, sensitive, cute, sweet, everything.
we haven't even been together for a week but he already means the world to me

and the best part is.....he feels the same. he is the same.
he is amazing

Current Mood: bored
Wednesday, June 9th, 2004
9:31 am
I am fractured.
I fall in love too easily, too quickly, too hard.

Whilst you have already forgotten my name, I'm still left here struggling with the memory of you.

Current Mood: melancholy
Friday, May 7th, 2004
6:04 pm
Good, bad, where's neutral?
Hi everyone,

I've been going through a workshop that has helped me get my head clear a little when it comes to wanting to live a healthy, obsession-free lifestyle. I have been busy with stressful family matters (my mom being sick) and have not been able to sit down and have open talks with family like I want to about healthy recovery. I've been testing my own waters; for example, playing music sung by a singer I'm obsessed with and seeing if I still have fantasies and feelings for him and such. Well, now I have a thing that happens where I will let myself fantasize a little because I know recovery isn't suddenly stopping. I'll start to think of something happy and pleasurable (usually a love/sex fantasy) and then I see my stepfather and a flash of the abuse that happened when I was eight. It's like I'm telling myself "Stop it now, this is BAD!" and I get afraid and lose stability. Is there even a neutral here? If so, I surely don't know where it is. I'm treating mom like she doesn't deserve to be treated because I'm tired of her laying around resting, I want her up and better now so I can continue on with my normal life. I feel like such a failure, yes, I'm getting a super A+ in fantasy but a F minus minus infinity minus in reality.

Current Mood: discontent
Friday, April 30th, 2004
2:34 pm
New to the community
Hi, my name is Kate, and I am a newly discovered love addict. I picked this group because a major factor of my personality is that I can be very obsessive and also compulsive at times, but I haven't been clinically diagnosed with OCD.

I'm an abuse survivor and although I am in a safe environment with my family, I still have bouts of depression, feeling lost and unsure of myself and others. I was in a long-distance relationship between September 2003 and... well, it started going downhill in January and we were off and on until a few weeks ago, maybe a month, I forget, when we had our final call. His two other ex-girlfriends were love/sex addicts and I gave myself confidence, I thought I could be better than them and it turns out I'm just the same, even worse because we were so far away from each other and he also didn't have the brains enough to know how to open up and love. He's a 10-year-old trapped in a 30-year-old body and I'm so torn on whether I should just let that pass or sit in longing that maybe he'd change and maybe he'd move here because I was the best he ever had and I'd have him back and we'd work through everything together. I was ready to move on, but now I'm so afraid of trust, I'm even afraid to trust myself.

Ok, I'm sorry for the long rambling intro, but I'm also venting some frustration since I tried to join a support site and I don't think I got approved for the workshop. Feel free to add me to msn messenger if you have it so that I can get some real live support and perhaps learn to trust again.

Current Mood: apathetic
Saturday, March 27th, 2004
10:02 pm
...+...Tears me to pieces...+...
I'm new here...

My boyfriend that I built my life around broke up with me about a week ago, there's really not much to say...well there is...but..you know. I just hate being so stuck. I know it takes time to heal, and that I'll move on eventually, but I can't wait that long. I just hate it all...relationships....I jump into them without thinking of the consequences. I give out my heart with no hesitation, and I get it back in a million pieces.


Current Mood: gloomy
12:55 am
Alright I'm new, so hello kids.
I'm also definitely obsessed and I definitely need to vent because my friends hate hearing about it already.

Just out of curiousity, how long have you been obsessed?
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